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Longlisted for the 2022 National Book Award for Poetry
Longlisted for the 2023 PEN Open Book Award
Finalist for the Poetry Society of America's Norma Farber First Book Award

“Outstanding . . . the poetry in these pages is intelligent, lyrical, as invested in the past as the present and future with witty nods to pop culture.” —Roxane Gay, author of Hunger

 
“I’ve never read anything like it. Truly a sublime experience.” —Jason Reynolds, author of Ain’t Burned All the Bright

A groundbreaking collection about Afropioneerism past and present from Pushcart Prize-nominated poet and New York Times bestselling author Rio Cortez

From a visionary writer praised for her captivating work on Black history and experience comes a poetry collection exploring personal, political, and artistic frontiers, journeying from her family's history as "Afropioneers" in the American West to shimmering glimpses of transcendent, liberated futures. 
 
In poems that range from wry, tongue-in-cheek observations about contemporary life to more nuanced meditations on her ancestors—some of the earliest Black pioneers to settle in the western United States after Reconstruction—Golden Ax invites readers to re-imagine the West, Black womanhood, and the legacies that shape and sustain the pursuit of freedom.
Far Enough

Byrdie Lee Howell Langon self-published Utah and the Early Black Settlers, a short book about her life and the Black community in Salt Lake City, Utah, and was honored with these words by her Bethel AME pastor, Jerry Ford, in 1969:

We say we love you

not only for what you are

but for what you are

when we are with you

we love you

for putting your hand

into our heaped-up hearts

and passing over

all the frivolous and weak things

that you cannot help

but see there

and drawing out

all the beautiful things

that many

have not looked far enough

to find

Covered Wagon as Spaceship

Standing unseen in the little bluestem,

curious and not quite used to living,

I consider whether it's aliens

that brought Black folks to the canyons, valley.

Standing in the great evaporation

of a lake, holy dandelion for

eyes, full and white and searching the landscape

for understanding: how do you come

to be where there are no others, except

science fiction? I am a child feeling

extraterrestrial; whose history, untold,

is not enough. Anyway, it begins with abduction

UFO, for Instance

When the hole between blue spruce widens

and twists into a cosmos              when the wild

lilac and campfire atomize           and night hangs their smokes

across its belly   when in the clearing you are certain

you are not lonelier         but there is a lifting in you

where other knowing rises too   and divides you from the bone

in your feet to the fat     round your heart and leaves you

surrounded by your own              breath you emerge from

and watch vanish and think          the night ate it ate your knowing and how

could anyone know any more     you might as well look out

into the clouds of long pine that hang     brambled and

orange in branches          you listen for howling but none comes

North Node

According to her, I appeared to my mother in an in utero vision and told her my name. Before I chose my mother, all day long I ran my fingertips along the slick backs of cutthroat trout and gathered water from Millcreek into a sapphire pail. I waited for her. In the distance, there was a blue bull surrounded by lilies.


She loves me, so she bore me underwater. IÕm here to learn a lesson. I spent my other lives in the Nevada desert, where I only did what felt good. What could that mean? I reconcile the pleasure in lying naked on the hot sand of the Mojave, watching the braided muscles in a horseÕs hind legs with the ocean nowhere, a frying chest on the hood of an idle car. So comes a lesson, IÕm here to cut the scorpion from my throat. Even though it has dragged me through sweet darkness and time. Even now, in the stillness of home, in love and full of wine, it wraps its eight legs around me. Even through the lilies, it sets its many eyes on me and, suddenly, longing

Like a Suggestion

The antelope start dying,

of all places, on Antelope

Island. Our two greyhounds

startle in their sleep and walk

together toward the window.

I've heard wolves are hunting

bison, even though it's spring

and there are easier things to kill.

Cowbirds abandon wooden

fences. They say Atlantic salmon

haven't returned to their cribs

of fresh water. The cat stands still

before an open door to the house.

I move to put my hand behind

her ear and she bolts.

I Have Learned to Define a Field as a Space between Mountains

If I remember a field where I stroked the velvety hound's-tongue and cracked its purple mouth from stem and it is not a memory, then what were the limits of the field?


Sometimes we are driving south toward Zion in a crowded truck with my mother and we pass the same red wildflowers until someone says, ÒIndian paintbrush, Rio, havenÕt you seen them before?Ó And, have I?


Other times I pose in front of giant flor de maga, its soft petal saucers larger than my head. My father fixes one behind my ear and says something in Eyeri but for what photograph? I am a conjoined hibiscus-headed twin, except IÕm local.


I braid the long hair of the willow and like a young warrior I swing across the canal bed by the braid. By the rivers of Babylon we sat down and wept when we remembered Zion. There on the willow trees, we hung our harps. How could we sing the LordÕs song in a foreign land? I read this once in Sunday school, tripping on it.


In any field I am certain I can be seen by someone. How couldnÕt I? When IÕm blood-divided one hundred ways, when I pray to the God called DO NOT BOARD THE SHIP, when IÕm protected by so many masters of the vine. They must be in here somewhere? They must see me this far into the desert, it canÕt be that I am alone here. I search behind the cattails, I scramble the wood. Has it gotten darker?


A child and all I can see are houses. Every house is a rambler with a plastic snake full of sand or a well that isnÕt really a well. Every house is on a street named after the Ute tribes. IÕm in Ute Country, in the field to fly a cheap kite, but it gets caught in pine sap. I walk home but not without pocketfuls.

The Idea of Ancestry

After Etheridge Knight

I am in a sweet place

standing in Millcreek

on a road

in its canyon

and this sweet place

has also been the sweet place

of my people

I am staring

into the water

my grandmother fished

with a rod and a line

I am standing

near the head

of a timber trail

felled by grandfather's

grandfather

I am listening

to the aspen

its green coins

singing in the wind

and I know it sang

just like this

for them

I am standing

right at the center

of its singing

the same sound

heard by black bears

or the calf of a moose

lying even sweeter

in the yarrow

showing we can be dark

and shining in wildflower

I know this timber

was once a house

my mother's grandmother's

mother's hammer in hand

everything

throttling backward

toward me

through time

a timber roof

that has kept the frost

from coming in

and stinging my babies

we made that

for ourselves

I consider choosing

there are times

when it is a joy

to remember

I like to think about my people

drinking fresh buttermilk

from the chosen farms

of their other people

all of us gazing

back at the house

framed by our future knowing

filling up on fresh tomatoes

and after

maybe lying like the silk calf

in the deerwood and the aster

and never-ending

Driving at Night

For Laquan McDonald

I think it's quails lining the road, but it's fallen birchwood.

What look like white clouds in a grassy basin, sprinklers.

I mistake the woman walking her retriever for a pair of fawns.

Could-be animals. Unexplained weather. Maybe they see us

that way. Disappointed, the closer they get. Not quite ready to let it go.

I'm Forced to Imagine There Are Two of Me Here

To fit in we practice not dancing I pull her hair against our head and burn

               the water out     she sucks in the lip of our belly

I call her Rio       say Rio  remind them of our one white    grandmother

               do what it takes to make them think        we are like them

Because it is a risk to want us      we close the bedroom door         she reaches under

the blanket         It's just  me Rio  and        The Dark

               does she part my legs     or The Dark's      I spit into our hand          and touch her

Sometimes she bites our lips       to make them smaller     we refuse

               to dance              we do what it takes

I let her drive Little Cottonwood Canyon It is night             we hit a deer      breath

from its nostrils clouds the windshield     It feels like there could be more

               of us somewhere              she opens the car doors we show each other mercy

take the same bite of a cracked rib           blood from her mouth I move to kiss the animal

I learn to shoot a bow

It is no River Jordan that flows here

between the railroad tracks and the back porch.

It's a canal. Not unlike my mother:

low as it want to be and fullest when

it rains. Existing for however long

without a name, and singing

under a timber bridge that we built. We built that.

Isn't that our story? To be denied

the beginning. I cross the bridge to shoot

a sapling bow my grandfather has carved.

He helps me aim into cardboard flats stacked

against the willow. I guess this is where

I am Orion. With two birth stories.

In one story I come from a sea god

with the forest as my mother, and in

the other, I have no mother at all

Partum

Just as close       to living as you are           to disappearing  knowing

my limits              you locate           the tender spots              without.

               To be batter and rind

maybe I've hidden            my feral self       even though       I was certain       I was wild

I'm now certain it was vanity

here I pace          cut open              drinking thistle and yolk

expecting nothing            determined to live

you        Little God,           Oldest Friend

who summons milk         and hair from the follicle              who moves my teeth      and makes

me bleed             it is not a joy      but joyful            to have been      brought

this close

to the earth

haven't we touched hands before?           in the bright red towns of my youth

in Loa or Escalante          where I thought                we were only passing through

was it you at the counter              serving me sarsaparilla   in a cool brown bottle,

remembering me?

Marion's 1982 Chevrolet Citation

If I board her      it means pulling open her heavy sails the steel

that gravity throws shut on my calves     good thing

I am quick to leave

She must be virtuous because there is nothing hidden in her

going     not the power in her closing doors nor the ignition

and its triumphant refrain

even idle, she disrupts    she rests in the cool shade

of a basketball hoop       I stare from my parents' living room window

how the mulberry tree wreaks its havoc on the driveway

all my friends call her The Killing Machine             how else

could she have lived this long and look so good   Marion says

it's like she's been asleep for me

I am six days from my sixteenth birthday               I cover her

hatchback in cosmic fish and press

my foot down where do I go       I wonder without them

the chrome of the dashboard mirrors the Millcreek sun

I see myself in fraction   my wristwatch as I pull the radio knob

eyebrow cocked as I adjust her mirrors

A Class Distinction

I start to say

Once,

I left the mountains,

the Wasatch and Oquirrh

talking aloud

I question the spelling

in my head

I've never been sure

It's possible

I wasn't born from mountains at all

but a valley.

What is lower

than a valley?

Once,

I left the strip malls,

I grew up in a long drive-thru line

sipping diet cola from a bent straw

when I talk about mountains

I am being romantic

about the valley

I worry

you'll unmask me

I've always been that way

lying

just a little

on the Berber carpet

squashing summer ants

the TV telling me everything

Salt

This is the place!                             Space is the place.

               -Brigham Young -Sun Ra

I slip the silksac of my body          and walk out      onto the flats

the air a machine             sucking earth into fragments of white     absorbing heat

               finding me

I kneel at the shore         I reach into the lake        it is red  as a halt

               I reach into the wound of it         I drag out            its string of bones

and now I am two            times the dark

I crush skeletons              of artemia underfoot      I eat eggs            in stasis the dead             lake idles

the city surrounds           what weapons we are    I fold the net of my shadow        I hold it

               as evidence

Emancipation Queen

"Emancipation Queen" was a historically Black beauty pageant in Utah.

               It's true

that beauty

can be a tool

dually wielded

               robin's egg

who would know

come from a red-

breasted bird

               taffeta gown

named for what

the body made

its blue

               but not the maker

or the blue

from which come

the robin

               is that emancipation

to leave beauty behind

               a Black girl

               on a stage

               inside the egg

of a robin

               a Black girl who is

a robin

repeating the question

As Cain

Until 1978, Mormons maintained that in a spiritual "preexistence," Blacks were neutral bystanders when other spirits chose sides during a fight between God and Lucifer. For that failure of courage, they were condemned to become the accursed descendants of Cain.

I think of the earth that drank Abel's blood

as I uproot foxtail from the garden.

Earth, not passive, but cursed by God, having

accepted death, and maybe, even, hoped

to grow from it. And Cain said to Abel,

"Let us go to the field." I cut my own

thumb on a weed. I carry out a strict

ritual of healing: cold hose water and then

most Holy: mouth. Tell me, what mark has God

given me? I am paraphrasing here

when I say God told Cain to rule over

his own longing or else restless wanderer

shall he be on earth. First curse, then blessing.

God's always changing his mind about us

To Salt Lake, Letter Regarding Genealogy

After Charles Olson

No shore no shore           backed against a paradox of water           where snow

halts in valleys and we drink

what melts,  I, risen from one break         in the endless

salt flat. I have had to build. O! how I have built for you!

See how I have come, Salt Lake, with my thousand faces of the void!

My face night with no stars,        my face waves

in night sea.       I was born to work.

My mother, crow-headed goddess, called me dust and trusted

I'd become.        I changed for you! I became

a quarry in Big Cottonwood. Later, I was born

in uniform and carried a pickax in my throat.

I stole the mountain's sandstone and it wasn't good enough

so I took its quartz instead and told you  "pray by it." I,

Guard-thing of the White city.    How would you pray without me!

I was born with a sore head from a perm               and swaddled in pages

from The Good Book.     I was a decoy.

I pretended not to know my many names.           

I did the work of believing with you.

I was born on swamp property    the woman who bore me was an animal.
© Paul Tran
Born and raised in Salt Lake City, Utah, Rio Cortez is the New York Times bestselling author of The ABCs of Black History (Workman, 2020) and I Have Learned to Define a Field As a Space Between Mountains, winner of the 2015 Toi Dericotte and Cornelius Eady Chapbook Prize. Her honors include a Poets & Writers Amy Award, as well as fellowships from Cave Canem, Canto Mundo, The Jerome Foundation, and Poet’s House. Rio holds an MFA in Creative Writing from New York University. View titles by Rio Cortez

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Longlisted for the 2022 National Book Award for Poetry
Longlisted for the 2023 PEN Open Book Award
Finalist for the Poetry Society of America's Norma Farber First Book Award

“Outstanding . . . the poetry in these pages is intelligent, lyrical, as invested in the past as the present and future with witty nods to pop culture.” —Roxane Gay, author of Hunger

 
“I’ve never read anything like it. Truly a sublime experience.” —Jason Reynolds, author of Ain’t Burned All the Bright

A groundbreaking collection about Afropioneerism past and present from Pushcart Prize-nominated poet and New York Times bestselling author Rio Cortez

From a visionary writer praised for her captivating work on Black history and experience comes a poetry collection exploring personal, political, and artistic frontiers, journeying from her family's history as "Afropioneers" in the American West to shimmering glimpses of transcendent, liberated futures. 
 
In poems that range from wry, tongue-in-cheek observations about contemporary life to more nuanced meditations on her ancestors—some of the earliest Black pioneers to settle in the western United States after Reconstruction—Golden Ax invites readers to re-imagine the West, Black womanhood, and the legacies that shape and sustain the pursuit of freedom.

Excerpt

Far Enough

Byrdie Lee Howell Langon self-published Utah and the Early Black Settlers, a short book about her life and the Black community in Salt Lake City, Utah, and was honored with these words by her Bethel AME pastor, Jerry Ford, in 1969:

We say we love you

not only for what you are

but for what you are

when we are with you

we love you

for putting your hand

into our heaped-up hearts

and passing over

all the frivolous and weak things

that you cannot help

but see there

and drawing out

all the beautiful things

that many

have not looked far enough

to find

Covered Wagon as Spaceship

Standing unseen in the little bluestem,

curious and not quite used to living,

I consider whether it's aliens

that brought Black folks to the canyons, valley.

Standing in the great evaporation

of a lake, holy dandelion for

eyes, full and white and searching the landscape

for understanding: how do you come

to be where there are no others, except

science fiction? I am a child feeling

extraterrestrial; whose history, untold,

is not enough. Anyway, it begins with abduction

UFO, for Instance

When the hole between blue spruce widens

and twists into a cosmos              when the wild

lilac and campfire atomize           and night hangs their smokes

across its belly   when in the clearing you are certain

you are not lonelier         but there is a lifting in you

where other knowing rises too   and divides you from the bone

in your feet to the fat     round your heart and leaves you

surrounded by your own              breath you emerge from

and watch vanish and think          the night ate it ate your knowing and how

could anyone know any more     you might as well look out

into the clouds of long pine that hang     brambled and

orange in branches          you listen for howling but none comes

North Node

According to her, I appeared to my mother in an in utero vision and told her my name. Before I chose my mother, all day long I ran my fingertips along the slick backs of cutthroat trout and gathered water from Millcreek into a sapphire pail. I waited for her. In the distance, there was a blue bull surrounded by lilies.


She loves me, so she bore me underwater. IÕm here to learn a lesson. I spent my other lives in the Nevada desert, where I only did what felt good. What could that mean? I reconcile the pleasure in lying naked on the hot sand of the Mojave, watching the braided muscles in a horseÕs hind legs with the ocean nowhere, a frying chest on the hood of an idle car. So comes a lesson, IÕm here to cut the scorpion from my throat. Even though it has dragged me through sweet darkness and time. Even now, in the stillness of home, in love and full of wine, it wraps its eight legs around me. Even through the lilies, it sets its many eyes on me and, suddenly, longing

Like a Suggestion

The antelope start dying,

of all places, on Antelope

Island. Our two greyhounds

startle in their sleep and walk

together toward the window.

I've heard wolves are hunting

bison, even though it's spring

and there are easier things to kill.

Cowbirds abandon wooden

fences. They say Atlantic salmon

haven't returned to their cribs

of fresh water. The cat stands still

before an open door to the house.

I move to put my hand behind

her ear and she bolts.

I Have Learned to Define a Field as a Space between Mountains

If I remember a field where I stroked the velvety hound's-tongue and cracked its purple mouth from stem and it is not a memory, then what were the limits of the field?


Sometimes we are driving south toward Zion in a crowded truck with my mother and we pass the same red wildflowers until someone says, ÒIndian paintbrush, Rio, havenÕt you seen them before?Ó And, have I?


Other times I pose in front of giant flor de maga, its soft petal saucers larger than my head. My father fixes one behind my ear and says something in Eyeri but for what photograph? I am a conjoined hibiscus-headed twin, except IÕm local.


I braid the long hair of the willow and like a young warrior I swing across the canal bed by the braid. By the rivers of Babylon we sat down and wept when we remembered Zion. There on the willow trees, we hung our harps. How could we sing the LordÕs song in a foreign land? I read this once in Sunday school, tripping on it.


In any field I am certain I can be seen by someone. How couldnÕt I? When IÕm blood-divided one hundred ways, when I pray to the God called DO NOT BOARD THE SHIP, when IÕm protected by so many masters of the vine. They must be in here somewhere? They must see me this far into the desert, it canÕt be that I am alone here. I search behind the cattails, I scramble the wood. Has it gotten darker?


A child and all I can see are houses. Every house is a rambler with a plastic snake full of sand or a well that isnÕt really a well. Every house is on a street named after the Ute tribes. IÕm in Ute Country, in the field to fly a cheap kite, but it gets caught in pine sap. I walk home but not without pocketfuls.

The Idea of Ancestry

After Etheridge Knight

I am in a sweet place

standing in Millcreek

on a road

in its canyon

and this sweet place

has also been the sweet place

of my people

I am staring

into the water

my grandmother fished

with a rod and a line

I am standing

near the head

of a timber trail

felled by grandfather's

grandfather

I am listening

to the aspen

its green coins

singing in the wind

and I know it sang

just like this

for them

I am standing

right at the center

of its singing

the same sound

heard by black bears

or the calf of a moose

lying even sweeter

in the yarrow

showing we can be dark

and shining in wildflower

I know this timber

was once a house

my mother's grandmother's

mother's hammer in hand

everything

throttling backward

toward me

through time

a timber roof

that has kept the frost

from coming in

and stinging my babies

we made that

for ourselves

I consider choosing

there are times

when it is a joy

to remember

I like to think about my people

drinking fresh buttermilk

from the chosen farms

of their other people

all of us gazing

back at the house

framed by our future knowing

filling up on fresh tomatoes

and after

maybe lying like the silk calf

in the deerwood and the aster

and never-ending

Driving at Night

For Laquan McDonald

I think it's quails lining the road, but it's fallen birchwood.

What look like white clouds in a grassy basin, sprinklers.

I mistake the woman walking her retriever for a pair of fawns.

Could-be animals. Unexplained weather. Maybe they see us

that way. Disappointed, the closer they get. Not quite ready to let it go.

I'm Forced to Imagine There Are Two of Me Here

To fit in we practice not dancing I pull her hair against our head and burn

               the water out     she sucks in the lip of our belly

I call her Rio       say Rio  remind them of our one white    grandmother

               do what it takes to make them think        we are like them

Because it is a risk to want us      we close the bedroom door         she reaches under

the blanket         It's just  me Rio  and        The Dark

               does she part my legs     or The Dark's      I spit into our hand          and touch her

Sometimes she bites our lips       to make them smaller     we refuse

               to dance              we do what it takes

I let her drive Little Cottonwood Canyon It is night             we hit a deer      breath

from its nostrils clouds the windshield     It feels like there could be more

               of us somewhere              she opens the car doors we show each other mercy

take the same bite of a cracked rib           blood from her mouth I move to kiss the animal

I learn to shoot a bow

It is no River Jordan that flows here

between the railroad tracks and the back porch.

It's a canal. Not unlike my mother:

low as it want to be and fullest when

it rains. Existing for however long

without a name, and singing

under a timber bridge that we built. We built that.

Isn't that our story? To be denied

the beginning. I cross the bridge to shoot

a sapling bow my grandfather has carved.

He helps me aim into cardboard flats stacked

against the willow. I guess this is where

I am Orion. With two birth stories.

In one story I come from a sea god

with the forest as my mother, and in

the other, I have no mother at all

Partum

Just as close       to living as you are           to disappearing  knowing

my limits              you locate           the tender spots              without.

               To be batter and rind

maybe I've hidden            my feral self       even though       I was certain       I was wild

I'm now certain it was vanity

here I pace          cut open              drinking thistle and yolk

expecting nothing            determined to live

you        Little God,           Oldest Friend

who summons milk         and hair from the follicle              who moves my teeth      and makes

me bleed             it is not a joy      but joyful            to have been      brought

this close

to the earth

haven't we touched hands before?           in the bright red towns of my youth

in Loa or Escalante          where I thought                we were only passing through

was it you at the counter              serving me sarsaparilla   in a cool brown bottle,

remembering me?

Marion's 1982 Chevrolet Citation

If I board her      it means pulling open her heavy sails the steel

that gravity throws shut on my calves     good thing

I am quick to leave

She must be virtuous because there is nothing hidden in her

going     not the power in her closing doors nor the ignition

and its triumphant refrain

even idle, she disrupts    she rests in the cool shade

of a basketball hoop       I stare from my parents' living room window

how the mulberry tree wreaks its havoc on the driveway

all my friends call her The Killing Machine             how else

could she have lived this long and look so good   Marion says

it's like she's been asleep for me

I am six days from my sixteenth birthday               I cover her

hatchback in cosmic fish and press

my foot down where do I go       I wonder without them

the chrome of the dashboard mirrors the Millcreek sun

I see myself in fraction   my wristwatch as I pull the radio knob

eyebrow cocked as I adjust her mirrors

A Class Distinction

I start to say

Once,

I left the mountains,

the Wasatch and Oquirrh

talking aloud

I question the spelling

in my head

I've never been sure

It's possible

I wasn't born from mountains at all

but a valley.

What is lower

than a valley?

Once,

I left the strip malls,

I grew up in a long drive-thru line

sipping diet cola from a bent straw

when I talk about mountains

I am being romantic

about the valley

I worry

you'll unmask me

I've always been that way

lying

just a little

on the Berber carpet

squashing summer ants

the TV telling me everything

Salt

This is the place!                             Space is the place.

               -Brigham Young -Sun Ra

I slip the silksac of my body          and walk out      onto the flats

the air a machine             sucking earth into fragments of white     absorbing heat

               finding me

I kneel at the shore         I reach into the lake        it is red  as a halt

               I reach into the wound of it         I drag out            its string of bones

and now I am two            times the dark

I crush skeletons              of artemia underfoot      I eat eggs            in stasis the dead             lake idles

the city surrounds           what weapons we are    I fold the net of my shadow        I hold it

               as evidence

Emancipation Queen

"Emancipation Queen" was a historically Black beauty pageant in Utah.

               It's true

that beauty

can be a tool

dually wielded

               robin's egg

who would know

come from a red-

breasted bird

               taffeta gown

named for what

the body made

its blue

               but not the maker

or the blue

from which come

the robin

               is that emancipation

to leave beauty behind

               a Black girl

               on a stage

               inside the egg

of a robin

               a Black girl who is

a robin

repeating the question

As Cain

Until 1978, Mormons maintained that in a spiritual "preexistence," Blacks were neutral bystanders when other spirits chose sides during a fight between God and Lucifer. For that failure of courage, they were condemned to become the accursed descendants of Cain.

I think of the earth that drank Abel's blood

as I uproot foxtail from the garden.

Earth, not passive, but cursed by God, having

accepted death, and maybe, even, hoped

to grow from it. And Cain said to Abel,

"Let us go to the field." I cut my own

thumb on a weed. I carry out a strict

ritual of healing: cold hose water and then

most Holy: mouth. Tell me, what mark has God

given me? I am paraphrasing here

when I say God told Cain to rule over

his own longing or else restless wanderer

shall he be on earth. First curse, then blessing.

God's always changing his mind about us

To Salt Lake, Letter Regarding Genealogy

After Charles Olson

No shore no shore           backed against a paradox of water           where snow

halts in valleys and we drink

what melts,  I, risen from one break         in the endless

salt flat. I have had to build. O! how I have built for you!

See how I have come, Salt Lake, with my thousand faces of the void!

My face night with no stars,        my face waves

in night sea.       I was born to work.

My mother, crow-headed goddess, called me dust and trusted

I'd become.        I changed for you! I became

a quarry in Big Cottonwood. Later, I was born

in uniform and carried a pickax in my throat.

I stole the mountain's sandstone and it wasn't good enough

so I took its quartz instead and told you  "pray by it." I,

Guard-thing of the White city.    How would you pray without me!

I was born with a sore head from a perm               and swaddled in pages

from The Good Book.     I was a decoy.

I pretended not to know my many names.           

I did the work of believing with you.

I was born on swamp property    the woman who bore me was an animal.

Author

© Paul Tran
Born and raised in Salt Lake City, Utah, Rio Cortez is the New York Times bestselling author of The ABCs of Black History (Workman, 2020) and I Have Learned to Define a Field As a Space Between Mountains, winner of the 2015 Toi Dericotte and Cornelius Eady Chapbook Prize. Her honors include a Poets & Writers Amy Award, as well as fellowships from Cave Canem, Canto Mundo, The Jerome Foundation, and Poet’s House. Rio holds an MFA in Creative Writing from New York University. View titles by Rio Cortez

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