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A Prosecutor's Thoughts on Crime, Punishment, and the Rule of Law

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On sale Jan 21, 2020 | 368 Pages | 978-0-525-56293-1
By the one-time federal prosecutor for the Southern District of New York, an important overview of the way our justice system works, and why the rule of law is essential to our survival as a society.

Preet Bharara has spent much of his life examining our legal system, pushing to make it better, and prosecuting those looking to subvert it. Bharara believes in our system and knows it must be protected, but to do so, he argues, we must also acknowledge and allow for flaws both in our justice system and in human nature. Bharara uses the many illustrative anecdotes and case histories from his storied, formidable career—the successes as well as the failures--to shed light on the realities of the legal system and the consequences of taking action.

Inspiring and inspiringly written, Doing Justice gives us hope that rational and objective fact-based thinking, combined with compassion, can help us achieve truth and justice in our daily lives. Sometimes poignant and sometimes controversial, Bharara's expose is a thought-provoking, entertaining book about the need to find the humanity in our legal system as well as in our society.
 
 
“Bharara positions Doing Justice as a treatise on ‘the rule of law and faith in the rule of law’ at a time when both are under threat. The contrast with Trump, and his contempt for the rule of law, is inevitable. Beyond simply rebutting the president, though, Bharara seeks to present the justice system Trump disdains as a source of inspiration for a healthier politics. His reflection on the role of the justice system in America is an effort both to make the inner workings of that system accessible to people unfamiliar with what criminal justice looks like from the perspective of law enforcement, and to suggest how people might apply ideals and habits honed in the courtroom to the patterns of everyday life.” —The Washington Post

“His first book, Doing Justice: A Prosecutor’s Thoughts on Crime, Punishment and the Rule of Law, takes us back to basics, asking us to reflect on what truth means when a serial liar sits in the Oval Office; what civility involves amid all the social media yelling; and how to uphold the rule of law when thuggish behaviour appears to be the order of the day. . . . At its most powerful, Doing Justice works as a metaphorical survival guide for the Trump era. As with everything Bharara does, he writes in a tone that is calm and considered, a warm bath after the outrage of Trump’s daily tweets. . . . That’s what has made him such an unlikely superstar following his dismissal at Trump’s hands.” —The Guardian

“Like the best lawyers (and writers), Preet Bharara tells a good war story. But Doing Justice is a great deal more—a vivid memoir of a critical job, a primer on the toughest questions of prosecutorial ethics, and a reminder of the drama inherent in life in the courtroom arena.” —Jeffrey Toobin, author of American Heiress: The Kidnapping, Crimes and Trial of Patty Hearst

“Most chapters delight or provoke in some way... His book is ultimately about ordinary fallibility, and how those responsible for the dispensation of justice are regular humans, prone to act as humans do. It is filled with sobering stories about error and—in the more beautiful, memorable cases—ingenuity, determination, redemption. . . . Bharara, as usual, makes a very strong case.” —The New York Times

“Doing Justice: A Prosecutor's Thoughts on Crime, Punishment, and the Rule of Law
 is written in a way that both an inside audience and a lay audience will savor. Trials and investigations are currently at the forefront of our national discourse, and Bharara does a superb job supplementing that conversation… What makes his book particularly absorbing—and worth reading—is that, among the many and important successes of his storied office, he also describes the uncertainty, the struggles, the failures and the dilemmas inherent in the work… Doing Justice is a consistently compelling and important tale, well written and well worth reading.” —Lawfare 
 
“With Doing Justice: A Prosecutor's Thoughts on Crime, Punishment, and the Rule of Law, Preet Bharara writes himself into the diamond circle of Clarence Darrow... now we have an un-put-down-able primer from the former U.S. attorney for the Southern District of New York (SDNY), written with immense skill and engaging style. He's tough, smart, and funny... He tells riveting stories from real-life experience. . . . Preet Bharara writes that you will not find God or grace in legal concepts or in formal notions of criminal justice. But be assured that you'll find God and grace in this fascinating book.” —Kitty Kelley, Washington Independent Review of Books

“In this fascinating combination of memoir and ethical-legal manifesto, former U.S. attorney Bharara posits that ‘the model of the American trial has something to teach us... about debate and disagreement and truth and justice.’ . . . His prose has the quality of a well-written speech, with philosophical pronouncements, followed by supporting tales from both his legal career and his personal life, recounted in a superbly accessible and conversational, even humorous tone, . . . Bharara also reminds readers that, while the law is an incredible tool, it is people who create or corrupt justice. With its approachable human moments, tragic and triumphant cases, heroic investigators, and depictions of hardworking everyday people, this book is a rare thing: a page-turning work of practical moral philosophy.” —Publishers Weekly (starred review) 

“The former federal prosecutor for the Southern District of New York skillfully explains how he approached his job, offering a mixture of guiding principles and compelling anecdotes. Unlike many lawyers who write books, Bharara refreshingly avoids jargon, striking a conversational tone and regularly employing analogies and metaphors that make his points easily understandable. An engaging tour from beginning to end.” —Kirkus (starred review)

“Bright with anecdotes from his lengthy and illustrious career, Bharara’s razor-edge judgments about punishment, procedure, outcome, and outlook address issues of governance and moral grounding that form the crux of the nature of justice. Bharara speaks with a clear, firm, and engaging voice in this essential primer about the importance of a fair and open justice system.” —Booklist

“A relevant and thought-provoking commentary on truth and justice from the unique perspective of a high-level former U.S. Attorney.” —Library Journal

Doing Justice is an essential read for every American who cares about the rule of law and the pursuit of justice in the United States, particularly at a time when these ideals are a constant subject of attack for self-serving political purposes.” —Michael J. McCann, New York Journal of Books  
Truth is Elusive: The Boys

During the summer of 1989, between my junior and my senior years of college, I worked for an hourly wage at my uncle’s small insurance business in Long Branch, New Jersey. It was tedious work that involved literally typing thousands of names, addresses, and phone num­bers into a desktop computer from the phone book to create a database for mailers advertising my uncle’s business. This was not the most auspicious precursor to a distinguished career in the law, so I welcomed any respite from encroaching carpal tun­nel syndrome that hot Jersey summer.

One afternoon in August, I got a call from my best friend from high school, Jessica Goldsmith Barzilay, who was also on summer break before her junior year at SUNY Binghamton. The office receptionist, who also happened to be my aunt, trans­ferred the call to the phone closest to my desk. The most pleas­ant and upbeat personality I know, Jessica has always been quick to laugh and even quicker to make other people laugh. Her face is forever crinkled in a smile.

There was no smile in Jessica’s voice on the afternoon of August 20, 1989. It was the first of several devastating phone calls I received from her in the span of a few months. In this first call, she was trying to tell me something, but I couldn’t make out what she was saying, because she was crying—not in the ordinary way people weep because something merely sad has happened, she was quaking the way people do when something tragic has come to pass. While she struggled to deliver her unspeakable news, my first thoughts went to her parents, at whose home my brother and I would have des­sert every Thanksgiving in a long-running tradition. Next I thought about her two sisters, who had also gone to high school with us.

After a minute or two, Jessica composed herself. The news was about her parents’ lifelong friends. “Jose and Kitty are dead,” she said. Not only were they dead, but they had been murdered—viciously murdered—their bodies literally blown apart by shotgun blasts, in their own living room and at close range. They had been eating strawberries and ice cream on the couch, watching The Spy Who Loved Me. We learned later that the blasts were so violent, Jose’s head was almost severed from his body.

I had long heard about Jose and Kitty from Jessica. Jessica’s parents had lived near them for a time when they were all young and poor and trying to make a go of it in Queens. They rented small apartments near each other and did what young, striv­ing couples do. They worked hard, tried to make ends meet, and dreamed big. An inseparable foursome, they spent holidays and weekends with each other, played tennis and Monopoly together. In the years since these humble beginnings, Jose, an immigrant from Cuba, had moved the family to Beverly Hills, grown very successful in Hollywood, and in every way had lived and achieved the American dream. Jose and Kitty had two sons. I’d heard about them too because, growing up, Jessica had a crush on the older one, who went on to Princeton. Both boys were handsome and athletic. Now they were orphans.

On the night of the murders, police received a hysterical call from one of the brothers, who said he had come upon his parents’ bodies. Cops sped to the family residence, a $5 mil­lion mansion that had once been Michael Jackson’s home and before that Elton John’s. There they found the younger son on the front lawn, curled up in the fetal position. Inside they found the bloodbath.

I had never met this family, but I felt I knew them well through Jessica’s stories over the years. Now I felt searing vicarious grief listening to my friend sob through the grisly details. When Jes­sica had calmed down enough, I thought it was okay to find out more. Were there suspects? No suspects yet, she said, but the police believed it might be a Mafia killing on account of the brutality. It could have been a vengeance hit, but she had no idea who would want to do such a thing. And for some time, the cops had no clue either.

Eventually, this murder-mystery would become the second most sensational criminal case of the 1990s, eclipsed only by the trial of O. J. Simpson. Kitty and Jose were the parents of Lyle and Erik Menendez, and they had been slaughtered by their own sons. It was a long while, however, before this awful truth became known. And longer still before Jessica and her family would believe it.

Jessica couldn’t attend the funeral in Princeton, because she needed to get back for the start of classes. Her parents attended the services—which had to be closed casket—and reported that Erik seemed especially heartbroken over his parents’ deaths. Both children, they said, spoke lovingly and eloquently about Jose and Kitty.

I remember the next time Jessica called me in tears. It was months later, in March 1990. I was sitting on the hard twin mat­tress in my tiny college dorm room with an architect’s lamp on, senior thesis coming due, and procrastinating as usual. Her voice was cracking but calmer than it had been in August. She said, “They mistakenly arrested the boys.” That’s always how she referred to Lyle and Erik. Even now, three decades later, these two men—now well into middle age and serving life sentences for parricide—are “the boys.” Frozen in time, pre-murder.

“How could the cops make such a terrible mistake?” she asked. It wasn’t a purely rhetorical question. I was heading to Columbia Law School in the fall, and I suppose she was plain­tively asking me to channel some future legal self, to explain how such a profound police error could occur (and how it could be fixed).

I flinched before asking the obvious question. “Jessica, could they have done it?”

Her reply was adamant: “No. One hundred percent no.”

I said, “Can you be sure?”

“I know they didn’t do it,” Jessica said. “I know it, I know it.” I was convinced.

Months after the arrest, Jessica called again. She had just spo­ken with one of the boys’ aunts. Lyle and Erik had confessed. The boys had killed their parents, they claimed, in self-defense, after what they said was years of mental, physical, and sexual abuse by Jose. And why Kitty? Lyle would later be heard in a taped session with his psychiatrist saying he killed their mother to put her “out of her misery.” The confession and change of plea was about to become public, and the Menendez aunt wanted Jessica’s family to hear it from her before it was on the news. I asked Jessica how her dad was taking it. “This is worse than losing Kitty and Jose,” he had told her.

What followed was a six-year odyssey involving an epic legal battle over the admissibility of the psychiatrist’s recordings, fights over the self-defense doctrine, appeals to the California Supreme Court, multiple mistrials, and finally murder convic­tions of both sons in 1996. All of this would play out in public and transfix the country. The drama spawned multiple books and a TV series. Jessica even testified at the first and third trials.

By the time of the confession, I was a law student. But on that evening when Jessica first learned the truth, we did not discuss the criminal law, didn’t speculate about the viability of legal defenses or the possible sentence Lyle and Erik might receive if convicted. What Jessica talked about was her own gullibility, what she had gotten wrong, what she had missed. All those years. What had she not seen or chosen not to see? What pain and suffering had she been blind to? The shooting was not an impulsive heat-of-the-moment act. The crime had been meticu­lously arranged and planned and then carefully covered up. Lyle went on a spending spree afterward with his inheritance. He bought a Porsche, a Rolex watch, and a restaurant in Princeton.

What signs of monstrosity had Jessica ignored? The deaths were heartbreaking and the boys’ role in them excruciating, but what was also painfully gnawing at Jessica was her own mis­placed trust, her blindness to even the possibility of what turned out to be the truth. We talked all night, until the sun came up. The boys had done it. Jessica knew they hadn’t. But they had. She tried to make sense of it. We tried to make sense of it.

Much later, Jessica and her family would recall things that seemed odd and even terrible that might have signaled some roiling family tension below the perfect American dream sur­face. Jose was a tough dad, uncompromising and harsh with the boys. One time, he drove twelve-year-old Erik to a cemetery at night and left him crying among the tombstones in an effort to toughen him up. There were other stories like that, which Jes­sica has shared over the decades since. But the boys had turned out so well, everyone believed, that such incidents were forgot­ten or dismissed—until the murders. Or more accurately, until the boys’ confession to the murders.

Our all-nighter on the phone produced no epiphanies, save one: you can’t know anything about anybody. You can’t ever really know someone else’s mind or someone else’s heart, what some­one else is capable of. I mean, really know. That seems an appar­ent if depressing fact of life, but it was far less obvious to a couple of twenty-two-year-olds who had yet to live and work in the world.

It was the first moment I realized that anyone could be guilty of anything. There was something shattering about that. Shat­tering, but also instructive. To this day, when people tell me they know someone didn’t do it, I think of Lyle and Erik Menendez. It’s a sad but necessary reflex in a certain line of work. Because sometimes, all belief and faith and instinct to the contrary, the privileged sons of millionaires massacre their own parents.
PREET BHARARA served as U.S. Attorney for the Southern District of New York from 2009 to 2017. Bharara oversaw the investigation and litigation of all criminal and civil cases and supervised an office of more than two hundred Assistant U.S. Attorneys, who handled cases involving terrorism, narcotics and arms trafficking, financial and healthcare fraud, cybercrime, public corruption, gang violence, organized crime, and civil rights violations. In 2017, Bharara joined the NYU School of Law faculty as a Distinguished Scholar in Residence. He is the Executive Vice President of Some Spider Studios and the host of CAFE's Stay Tuned with Preet, a podcast focused on issues of justice and fairness. Bharara graduated magna cum laude from Harvard College and from Columbia Law School, where he was a member of the law review. View titles by Preet Bharara

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By the one-time federal prosecutor for the Southern District of New York, an important overview of the way our justice system works, and why the rule of law is essential to our survival as a society.

Preet Bharara has spent much of his life examining our legal system, pushing to make it better, and prosecuting those looking to subvert it. Bharara believes in our system and knows it must be protected, but to do so, he argues, we must also acknowledge and allow for flaws both in our justice system and in human nature. Bharara uses the many illustrative anecdotes and case histories from his storied, formidable career—the successes as well as the failures--to shed light on the realities of the legal system and the consequences of taking action.

Inspiring and inspiringly written, Doing Justice gives us hope that rational and objective fact-based thinking, combined with compassion, can help us achieve truth and justice in our daily lives. Sometimes poignant and sometimes controversial, Bharara's expose is a thought-provoking, entertaining book about the need to find the humanity in our legal system as well as in our society.
 
 
“Bharara positions Doing Justice as a treatise on ‘the rule of law and faith in the rule of law’ at a time when both are under threat. The contrast with Trump, and his contempt for the rule of law, is inevitable. Beyond simply rebutting the president, though, Bharara seeks to present the justice system Trump disdains as a source of inspiration for a healthier politics. His reflection on the role of the justice system in America is an effort both to make the inner workings of that system accessible to people unfamiliar with what criminal justice looks like from the perspective of law enforcement, and to suggest how people might apply ideals and habits honed in the courtroom to the patterns of everyday life.” —The Washington Post

“His first book, Doing Justice: A Prosecutor’s Thoughts on Crime, Punishment and the Rule of Law, takes us back to basics, asking us to reflect on what truth means when a serial liar sits in the Oval Office; what civility involves amid all the social media yelling; and how to uphold the rule of law when thuggish behaviour appears to be the order of the day. . . . At its most powerful, Doing Justice works as a metaphorical survival guide for the Trump era. As with everything Bharara does, he writes in a tone that is calm and considered, a warm bath after the outrage of Trump’s daily tweets. . . . That’s what has made him such an unlikely superstar following his dismissal at Trump’s hands.” —The Guardian

“Like the best lawyers (and writers), Preet Bharara tells a good war story. But Doing Justice is a great deal more—a vivid memoir of a critical job, a primer on the toughest questions of prosecutorial ethics, and a reminder of the drama inherent in life in the courtroom arena.” —Jeffrey Toobin, author of American Heiress: The Kidnapping, Crimes and Trial of Patty Hearst

“Most chapters delight or provoke in some way... His book is ultimately about ordinary fallibility, and how those responsible for the dispensation of justice are regular humans, prone to act as humans do. It is filled with sobering stories about error and—in the more beautiful, memorable cases—ingenuity, determination, redemption. . . . Bharara, as usual, makes a very strong case.” —The New York Times

“Doing Justice: A Prosecutor's Thoughts on Crime, Punishment, and the Rule of Law
 is written in a way that both an inside audience and a lay audience will savor. Trials and investigations are currently at the forefront of our national discourse, and Bharara does a superb job supplementing that conversation… What makes his book particularly absorbing—and worth reading—is that, among the many and important successes of his storied office, he also describes the uncertainty, the struggles, the failures and the dilemmas inherent in the work… Doing Justice is a consistently compelling and important tale, well written and well worth reading.” —Lawfare 
 
“With Doing Justice: A Prosecutor's Thoughts on Crime, Punishment, and the Rule of Law, Preet Bharara writes himself into the diamond circle of Clarence Darrow... now we have an un-put-down-able primer from the former U.S. attorney for the Southern District of New York (SDNY), written with immense skill and engaging style. He's tough, smart, and funny... He tells riveting stories from real-life experience. . . . Preet Bharara writes that you will not find God or grace in legal concepts or in formal notions of criminal justice. But be assured that you'll find God and grace in this fascinating book.” —Kitty Kelley, Washington Independent Review of Books

“In this fascinating combination of memoir and ethical-legal manifesto, former U.S. attorney Bharara posits that ‘the model of the American trial has something to teach us... about debate and disagreement and truth and justice.’ . . . His prose has the quality of a well-written speech, with philosophical pronouncements, followed by supporting tales from both his legal career and his personal life, recounted in a superbly accessible and conversational, even humorous tone, . . . Bharara also reminds readers that, while the law is an incredible tool, it is people who create or corrupt justice. With its approachable human moments, tragic and triumphant cases, heroic investigators, and depictions of hardworking everyday people, this book is a rare thing: a page-turning work of practical moral philosophy.” —Publishers Weekly (starred review) 

“The former federal prosecutor for the Southern District of New York skillfully explains how he approached his job, offering a mixture of guiding principles and compelling anecdotes. Unlike many lawyers who write books, Bharara refreshingly avoids jargon, striking a conversational tone and regularly employing analogies and metaphors that make his points easily understandable. An engaging tour from beginning to end.” —Kirkus (starred review)

“Bright with anecdotes from his lengthy and illustrious career, Bharara’s razor-edge judgments about punishment, procedure, outcome, and outlook address issues of governance and moral grounding that form the crux of the nature of justice. Bharara speaks with a clear, firm, and engaging voice in this essential primer about the importance of a fair and open justice system.” —Booklist

“A relevant and thought-provoking commentary on truth and justice from the unique perspective of a high-level former U.S. Attorney.” —Library Journal

Doing Justice is an essential read for every American who cares about the rule of law and the pursuit of justice in the United States, particularly at a time when these ideals are a constant subject of attack for self-serving political purposes.” —Michael J. McCann, New York Journal of Books  

Excerpt

Truth is Elusive: The Boys

During the summer of 1989, between my junior and my senior years of college, I worked for an hourly wage at my uncle’s small insurance business in Long Branch, New Jersey. It was tedious work that involved literally typing thousands of names, addresses, and phone num­bers into a desktop computer from the phone book to create a database for mailers advertising my uncle’s business. This was not the most auspicious precursor to a distinguished career in the law, so I welcomed any respite from encroaching carpal tun­nel syndrome that hot Jersey summer.

One afternoon in August, I got a call from my best friend from high school, Jessica Goldsmith Barzilay, who was also on summer break before her junior year at SUNY Binghamton. The office receptionist, who also happened to be my aunt, trans­ferred the call to the phone closest to my desk. The most pleas­ant and upbeat personality I know, Jessica has always been quick to laugh and even quicker to make other people laugh. Her face is forever crinkled in a smile.

There was no smile in Jessica’s voice on the afternoon of August 20, 1989. It was the first of several devastating phone calls I received from her in the span of a few months. In this first call, she was trying to tell me something, but I couldn’t make out what she was saying, because she was crying—not in the ordinary way people weep because something merely sad has happened, she was quaking the way people do when something tragic has come to pass. While she struggled to deliver her unspeakable news, my first thoughts went to her parents, at whose home my brother and I would have des­sert every Thanksgiving in a long-running tradition. Next I thought about her two sisters, who had also gone to high school with us.

After a minute or two, Jessica composed herself. The news was about her parents’ lifelong friends. “Jose and Kitty are dead,” she said. Not only were they dead, but they had been murdered—viciously murdered—their bodies literally blown apart by shotgun blasts, in their own living room and at close range. They had been eating strawberries and ice cream on the couch, watching The Spy Who Loved Me. We learned later that the blasts were so violent, Jose’s head was almost severed from his body.

I had long heard about Jose and Kitty from Jessica. Jessica’s parents had lived near them for a time when they were all young and poor and trying to make a go of it in Queens. They rented small apartments near each other and did what young, striv­ing couples do. They worked hard, tried to make ends meet, and dreamed big. An inseparable foursome, they spent holidays and weekends with each other, played tennis and Monopoly together. In the years since these humble beginnings, Jose, an immigrant from Cuba, had moved the family to Beverly Hills, grown very successful in Hollywood, and in every way had lived and achieved the American dream. Jose and Kitty had two sons. I’d heard about them too because, growing up, Jessica had a crush on the older one, who went on to Princeton. Both boys were handsome and athletic. Now they were orphans.

On the night of the murders, police received a hysterical call from one of the brothers, who said he had come upon his parents’ bodies. Cops sped to the family residence, a $5 mil­lion mansion that had once been Michael Jackson’s home and before that Elton John’s. There they found the younger son on the front lawn, curled up in the fetal position. Inside they found the bloodbath.

I had never met this family, but I felt I knew them well through Jessica’s stories over the years. Now I felt searing vicarious grief listening to my friend sob through the grisly details. When Jes­sica had calmed down enough, I thought it was okay to find out more. Were there suspects? No suspects yet, she said, but the police believed it might be a Mafia killing on account of the brutality. It could have been a vengeance hit, but she had no idea who would want to do such a thing. And for some time, the cops had no clue either.

Eventually, this murder-mystery would become the second most sensational criminal case of the 1990s, eclipsed only by the trial of O. J. Simpson. Kitty and Jose were the parents of Lyle and Erik Menendez, and they had been slaughtered by their own sons. It was a long while, however, before this awful truth became known. And longer still before Jessica and her family would believe it.

Jessica couldn’t attend the funeral in Princeton, because she needed to get back for the start of classes. Her parents attended the services—which had to be closed casket—and reported that Erik seemed especially heartbroken over his parents’ deaths. Both children, they said, spoke lovingly and eloquently about Jose and Kitty.

I remember the next time Jessica called me in tears. It was months later, in March 1990. I was sitting on the hard twin mat­tress in my tiny college dorm room with an architect’s lamp on, senior thesis coming due, and procrastinating as usual. Her voice was cracking but calmer than it had been in August. She said, “They mistakenly arrested the boys.” That’s always how she referred to Lyle and Erik. Even now, three decades later, these two men—now well into middle age and serving life sentences for parricide—are “the boys.” Frozen in time, pre-murder.

“How could the cops make such a terrible mistake?” she asked. It wasn’t a purely rhetorical question. I was heading to Columbia Law School in the fall, and I suppose she was plain­tively asking me to channel some future legal self, to explain how such a profound police error could occur (and how it could be fixed).

I flinched before asking the obvious question. “Jessica, could they have done it?”

Her reply was adamant: “No. One hundred percent no.”

I said, “Can you be sure?”

“I know they didn’t do it,” Jessica said. “I know it, I know it.” I was convinced.

Months after the arrest, Jessica called again. She had just spo­ken with one of the boys’ aunts. Lyle and Erik had confessed. The boys had killed their parents, they claimed, in self-defense, after what they said was years of mental, physical, and sexual abuse by Jose. And why Kitty? Lyle would later be heard in a taped session with his psychiatrist saying he killed their mother to put her “out of her misery.” The confession and change of plea was about to become public, and the Menendez aunt wanted Jessica’s family to hear it from her before it was on the news. I asked Jessica how her dad was taking it. “This is worse than losing Kitty and Jose,” he had told her.

What followed was a six-year odyssey involving an epic legal battle over the admissibility of the psychiatrist’s recordings, fights over the self-defense doctrine, appeals to the California Supreme Court, multiple mistrials, and finally murder convic­tions of both sons in 1996. All of this would play out in public and transfix the country. The drama spawned multiple books and a TV series. Jessica even testified at the first and third trials.

By the time of the confession, I was a law student. But on that evening when Jessica first learned the truth, we did not discuss the criminal law, didn’t speculate about the viability of legal defenses or the possible sentence Lyle and Erik might receive if convicted. What Jessica talked about was her own gullibility, what she had gotten wrong, what she had missed. All those years. What had she not seen or chosen not to see? What pain and suffering had she been blind to? The shooting was not an impulsive heat-of-the-moment act. The crime had been meticu­lously arranged and planned and then carefully covered up. Lyle went on a spending spree afterward with his inheritance. He bought a Porsche, a Rolex watch, and a restaurant in Princeton.

What signs of monstrosity had Jessica ignored? The deaths were heartbreaking and the boys’ role in them excruciating, but what was also painfully gnawing at Jessica was her own mis­placed trust, her blindness to even the possibility of what turned out to be the truth. We talked all night, until the sun came up. The boys had done it. Jessica knew they hadn’t. But they had. She tried to make sense of it. We tried to make sense of it.

Much later, Jessica and her family would recall things that seemed odd and even terrible that might have signaled some roiling family tension below the perfect American dream sur­face. Jose was a tough dad, uncompromising and harsh with the boys. One time, he drove twelve-year-old Erik to a cemetery at night and left him crying among the tombstones in an effort to toughen him up. There were other stories like that, which Jes­sica has shared over the decades since. But the boys had turned out so well, everyone believed, that such incidents were forgot­ten or dismissed—until the murders. Or more accurately, until the boys’ confession to the murders.

Our all-nighter on the phone produced no epiphanies, save one: you can’t know anything about anybody. You can’t ever really know someone else’s mind or someone else’s heart, what some­one else is capable of. I mean, really know. That seems an appar­ent if depressing fact of life, but it was far less obvious to a couple of twenty-two-year-olds who had yet to live and work in the world.

It was the first moment I realized that anyone could be guilty of anything. There was something shattering about that. Shat­tering, but also instructive. To this day, when people tell me they know someone didn’t do it, I think of Lyle and Erik Menendez. It’s a sad but necessary reflex in a certain line of work. Because sometimes, all belief and faith and instinct to the contrary, the privileged sons of millionaires massacre their own parents.

Author

PREET BHARARA served as U.S. Attorney for the Southern District of New York from 2009 to 2017. Bharara oversaw the investigation and litigation of all criminal and civil cases and supervised an office of more than two hundred Assistant U.S. Attorneys, who handled cases involving terrorism, narcotics and arms trafficking, financial and healthcare fraud, cybercrime, public corruption, gang violence, organized crime, and civil rights violations. In 2017, Bharara joined the NYU School of Law faculty as a Distinguished Scholar in Residence. He is the Executive Vice President of Some Spider Studios and the host of CAFE's Stay Tuned with Preet, a podcast focused on issues of justice and fairness. Bharara graduated magna cum laude from Harvard College and from Columbia Law School, where he was a member of the law review. View titles by Preet Bharara